Brian and Kailen: Being Macoy's Mommy: Month 5

Little Goose -

You have taught me so much about life. To put it bluntly...I was such a "know it all" before you became my whole world. Thank you for putting me in my place, humbling me, grounding me and making me see that there is no such thing as perfection and that it's so much funner to be imperfect. With you, life is more important and more beautiful.

Just for kicks, here's a few things I wish the current version of me could go back in time and prep the younger version of me on....

You will get tears in your eyes, even in public, when your little one smiles at you or touches your cheek because your heart feels like it might just jump out of your chest. People around you will stare as you tear up for no seemingly good reason. And, that's ok.
You will be bursting with love one moment and wishing you could drop your nugget off at daycare (on a Saturday) the next moment. And, that's ok.
You may think you have quite impressive multitasking skills now. Well, you will realize you have sharpened those skills even further when you find yourself watching a movie, feeding your baby a bottle by holding it with your elbow as you trim your little ones nails because it's the only time he's not squirming. That, and other things like it, will become normal. And, that's ok.
There will be Pacifiers everywhere when you don't need them and nowhere to be found when you are desperate for one. You will buy more and loose them and buy more after that. And, that's ok.
Your once perfectly organized and well dusted home will be beautifully hectic and peppered with toys, blankets, burp cloths and socks. You wont have time or energy to clean it up. And, that's ok.
The version of yourself that once bought things without even looking at the price tag will cease to exist and the new you will get strangely excited over good coupons. And, that's ok.
You will look at your little ones back to see if they are moving (aka he's alive and breathing) during tummy naps. You know doctors tell you not to let tots sleep on their tummy but you do it anyway cause your the mom and you will know best. It's not the first time you will ignore what a doctor says. And, that's ok.
You will worry. All the time. Less as time goes on but more than you could imagine the first few months. That's just part of learning to love someone more than you love yourself. And, that's ok.
You'll dream and talk extensively with your spouse about a night off from being a mom and a dad but you will spend date nights talking about the baby and calling home just to be sure all is well. And, that's ok.
You will get too busy to look in a mirror all weekend and when you catch a glimpse of yourself in the glass on the ice cream Isle at the grocery store, you will realize that's just one of the many things you need to work on. And, that's ok.
You will be broke. It's pretty much unavoidable. And, that's ok.
You will be kicked, slapped, head butted and hair pulled by your bundle of joy. And, that's ok.
Everything you knew about yourself, your spouse and the world will change. And, that's ok. In fact, with a little time, you realize that the new you is far more aware of true reality than the old you ever was.